And Now It Begins......

Its kind of a long story and this is probably a good place for a long story but I dont have the energy to recount it with the proper detail.  Let me simply say that I have been, or thought that I had been, on a path to re-find and re-new my faith in God.

As God would have it I was led to a chiropractor who has been helping not only my physical self but also the inner man. Since a recent appointment I have been reflecting on a brief bit of enlightment I recieved in his office. In a nutshell I have been struggling with some anxiety and it seemed to be centered around my job.  The enlightenment was a thought (a God thought I believe) that it was not my job causing my anxiety but my relationship with God and my unwillingness to respond to his purpose and call for my life. I have been reflecting on that moment ever since.

A more recent experience included having another God thought impress me that I would be broken and that now it would begin. Nothing more or less was shared.  Since then I have been penning some thoughts about this Breaking and Beginning. These are the thoughts up to this point:

Breaking! Hammer stroke after hammer stroke. Anvil, tong and the furnace bellows breathing in and breathing out. Heat to change what is to what will be. Breaking! And now it begins..........

And now it begins...... When will it end? What will I become? Will the breaking hurt or will I just break free? Clay doesn't argue with the potter. Iron doesn't argue with the hammer. Breaking! And now it begins......

The hammer pounds the Masters beat. He stirs the coals to raise the heat, and by creations force brings forth in me the thing that only I can be!! And now it begins.......

And Nooooow it Begins! The changes that He's planned for me. And Nooooow it Begins! To be what only He can see. And Nooooow it Begins! Replace my fear with confidence, and put in my hands the weapons that I need,,,, TO DESTROY THE ENEMY and be FREE! NOW, it has begun!